The Haiku

I’ve always found the Haiku interesting out of the poetry forms that I have looked at in school, but as I never really got into poetry in general, the thought of looking more into the Haiku, looking into poets who are known for their Haiku, and especially trying my hand at creating a Haiku was never something that I thought I would do.

Oh, how wrong was I. In my British Poetry class, we ended up having a teeny section of our lesson be about the Haiku. When prompted to discuss our favorite form from that week, I went with the Haiku. It’s simple, but deep. It can make you look at every day things in a different light. It can open up your eyes.

To go along with discussing the structure and why I like it, I chose to write my own at the last minute. It went better than I thought. My professor wants me to submit it to the school’s literary magazine, saying that I have talent at this form. One of my classmates also commented, and sent me to this one magazine called Rattle that accepts poetry submissions.

At the end of the day, I’ve decided to add more to my Haiku. I’m creating a sort of set of them around the same theme. Is there a term for that? I have no clue. I’m completely excited as this is something I have never done before. The only catch? If I want to try submitting it to Rattle, I cannot “publish” it anywhere else, and unfortunately, that includes personal blogs. If that weren’t the case, I would be sharing part of what I have done in this post.

I am still working on it, though. I have written more lines here or there, but I still have a bit to go. A Haiku may not be long, but it takes the right words to create one that just sounds right. Wish me luck, for I probably need it with my amateur poetry skills.

That being said, I will try to keep it updated on my blog on when I finish it and whether I end up submitting it. (I’m going to try to push myself to do so to be able to try something new.)

Not only have I begun writing my own, but I’m so very interested in reading more Haiku. I’m very tempted to buy a book that has some of Matsuo Bashō’s work as well as an introduction on him and some extras. But is that a smart idea with Christmas around the corner?

Am I the only one in this journey of delving into something that has previously been dismissed?

“Seek not to follow in the footsteps of men of old; seek what they sought.” – Matsuo Bashō

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Wow

It’s quite obvious that I haven’t logged on, or well, blogged for quite a while. In fact, this shouldn’t be surprising considering I don’t post frequently. I never have, even if I have the ambitions to do so. I don’t know what it is, really, that always seems to get in between me and writing posts for this blog.

I guess I should stop rambling now and get to the point of this post. After all, Wow is not a very descriptive title. Although I don’t post so often or anything like that, my blog is still here. It’s still aging… That being said, I can’t believe my blog is now over two years old! I haven’t even opened up WordPress for months, I think. I have a little notification saying thanks for sticking around. I’m not sure what the day or date was since it was over a month ago. Oops.

Anyways, I still think that’s quite exciting!

-Nicole

Let’s pretend…

Let’s pretend I haven’t been absent for 4 months. Okay? I’ve been thinking of posting again, but I find that I haven’t had much to post about. There’s nothing really interesting here, or that could just be how I feel. It’s winter, and that means that it’s cold and snowy outside. I absolutely don’t like going outside in the winter. I’m normally cold and under a blanket inside! I would like to go outside and take pictures, because I do think that the snow and all is pretty. I just don’t have any motivation to get outside and do so. I’d freeze anyways.

I find that I’ve been really unmotivated to do anything that is productive. I’ve only been working on schoolwork and going to work. Besides that, I spend my time on the computer or watching TV or Netflix. I want to be inspired so badly, but it just isn’t happening. I wish I could find a way to be motivated or a way to be inspired to do something. I do have hobbies. I like to write and draw and do other artistic things. I like reading, going outside (not when it’s cold), and cooking. I don’t have motivation to do any of it.

In my mind, I’m waiting for my life to start even though it already has. It doesn’t feel like it. To me, going to teach in South Korea will be when my life starts. Until then, I feel like I’m not living. I don’t do anything that has meaning. Some could argue that going to college and working has meaning. It isn’t, though. I’ve been going to school for my whole life, so it really isn’t anything new. Until I have my degree, it doesn’t feel like I’ve accomplished anything. Going to work isn’t that great. I do like my job and getting to interact with customers, but it isn’t what I want to do with my life.

Hopefully, I will find something to get me going. Maybe this is the winter blues talking? I guess I’ll find out when Spring comes. Until then, I’ll figure out something to do with my life and with this blog. Perhaps getting back into writing out what I’m feeling and doing (in this blog) will help me. I do feel a bit better already. I feel relieved that I can accept all of this, emotionally, by writing it out.

-Nicole

A Change of Heart

Oh, how does your heart change?
Is it too afraid to stay?
Or is it just that smart to go?

There will be sadness, there will be pain.
But we will still smile when it rains
We cannot be separated by this space,
Instead our hearts are tangled.


So, those are just a couple of random writings. But of course I have more news than just those.
I’ve decided to make a big change. I have stressed and I have worried, but I feel this is the best. I do know that I can get through this and still achieve my dreams.

I’m leaving my current school and my major of web design. I still have my same goal of going to South Korea and teaching English. I’m just going to be using a different path to get there. I’m switching to a school where I can major in English and minor in TESOL (teaching English to speakers of other languages). I really am excited for this change. I’ll be switching to this school probably next fall. Until then I’m going to be doing some schooling online to do some gen eds and get a job.

However, I am going to be sad to leave all of my friends and people I know. I will be trying my hardest to come back and visit as much as I can. It’s really bittersweet.

With this news though, I will have quite a bit more time on my hands to do things. I hope I can do more with this blog among other hobbies. I’d like to spend more time writing and other art…like photography and advancing my graphic design skills.

Stay tuned for more!

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Months Ago

Months ago, I lost my way. I became unfocused. I became uncaring. The pressure of too many things in my mind stopped my thoughts. They stopped my creativity. I had no motivation. Ups and downs happen like this often, but normally they do not change my personal schedule and focus in life. I let everything get to me and put me down. I completely shut down.

 

Weeks ago, I remembered what I wanted in life. I am now focused. I am now caring. I don’t let anything pressure me into shutting down. My thoughts are all over, coming up with new ideas. I am motivated to do what I want for my future. I will no longer let ups and downs stand in my way. Nothing will change my schedule or life unless I want it to. I am in charge. I am not some robot going through the motions to get through school. I will enjoy and learn from school. I will embrace everything it is willing to give me. I will not let anything put me down. I am alive.


I completely stopped doing everything creative and I greatly regret doing so. I am not going to focus on one certain thing for this blog, if I so choose to actively post. I realized I shouldn’t worry about keeping to this much of a creative schedule. I should embrace my creativity and do what I wish when I wish. I, however, have chosen to keep this going as a place to post anything I wish. It could be creative or it could be my thoughts. I could be things that have happened. It could be whatever I want.

 

– Nicole

Tackling a Challenge

So, to help myself with blogging…I’ve decided I really want to do a 365 Day Challenge. And yes, I do know that it is April. I figured, 365 day challenges don’t have to start in the beginning of the year.

It’s taken me a few days to figure out what to do for my 365 day challenge. However, I think I have it now. It’s going to include a mix of things so I don’t get bored with it (basically compiling different challenges into my own challenge). The list so far includes photo challenges, art challenges and writing challenges. I also plan to include music somewhere in all of this. If I do so then I’ll be including a lot of the things I enjoy and like. I like mixing things up.

I also think this will fit well in my blog. All of the things in the 365 Day Challenge will be in my life and about my life. This really might help me support my blog. By support, I mean keep it up and keep me posting. It makes me feel like the 365 Day Challenge fits on my blog and that my blog is actually about me and what I like…instead of just what I like (like K-Pop). Hopefully I’ll be able to tie in my Korean Learning into this challenge. Perhaps I’ll challenge myself to create a piece of art with a Korean word or something like. Or learn a new Korean word for a certain amount of days. Hm, ideas. 😉 And as for the review part of my blog…maybe I’ll review a certain amount of songs or groups for however many days.

The only thing I’m worried about is this might end up being too all over the place to where it doesn’t seem like it is a 365 day challenge at all. Though, as an overall name, it might be wise to just call it a 365 Day Blog Challenge-where I need to blog something each day. But that seems like it’d have to be not as themed. Oh well, this might just end up being more unique.

I think that a lot of them may end up being silly or just for fun while others will be more serious. I’m really excited to get the full list written, or at least half a year’s worth so I can start the challenge soon.

I plan to get started tomorrow, which means finishing a good part of the list tonight. This definitely means another blog post will be up tonight with the list of what I’ll be doing.

Well, now to get to work!

See you later,
Nicole

All New

Hi everyone~ I know the last time I posted was in February….since then a lot has happened. I’ve found out a lot about myself as well as figured out what was keeping me from being around as often as I would have liked.

I realized week or so ago that I didn’t even want to blog. Well, not on the blog that I currently had. You may ask, isn’t this the same blog? Well, the answer is yes and no! Sure, it’s the same. It has all of my old posts and comments and information, for the most part. However, it has a new title & url. It will be updated further with a new picture of myself as well as a new bio. I just haven’t gotten to it yet. Honestly, it took me FOREVER to figure out how to change the url for my blog. Thank you, Google. Also, the theme has changed. I wanted something that was lighter and more freeing.

I know that as a person, I have changed quite a bit. I seem to be happier and actually wanting to get out and do things. I want to interact more with others and other people. Most importantly, I’ve also made a couple of major decisions.

First one is, I’ve “changed my major”…which really isn’t a major change, but my school calls it that. You can only do this once at my school, and well, I’ve done it. I’m still majoring in Web Design & Interactive Media. However, I switched from my Associate’s Degree to my Bachelor’s Degree. This means I’ve committed myself to be here longer. This also means my original goal of going to the rest of university in Korea is gone.

No, this does not mean I’ve given up on going to South Korea. I’ve just changed how I want to do it. So far, I’ve realized that I want to go to South Korea by teaching English. Why would a web design major go to teach English? Because English & Literature is what I like second to Web Design. Also, it’s an easier way & I think more of a reliable way of going to South Korea. I also think it would be a really nice experience. Also by going there to teach English, I’d be able to see if I’d be able to go over there with a career in web design. I think it’d help me get my foot in the door, or whatever you say.

With this big change, it made me feel that my blog wasn’t telling the truth. It also made me rethink what I wanted to blog about. I’ve changed my blog to “Life Oriented” because that’s what I want to be as a person. I don’t want to be focused on one thing in my life. I’d really like to focus on my school, work, having fun, music, and so much more!

Previously, I started a little thing of reviewing and sharing different things. Examples would be the one K-Drama review and sharing BEAT WIN, who I still adore. I also shared a recipe with how to make it and pictures!

I plan to include in this blog, more reviews. I at least want to focus on reviewing K-Pop and shows. As far as shows go, it would be K-Dramas (when I have the time to watch them) and other shows that I enjoy watching. #1 on my list, that I am obsessed with, is Supernatural!

Besides reviews, I’d like to share more recipes or things with food. I know I eat reaaaally weird combinations of food or come up with new things that are yummy. I figure, why not share them? Someone else might like it too!

A big part of me and my life is art. I go to an art school, I see a lot of art. I haven’t made art or anything in a long time. Along with blogging, I hope to get back into that. Once I do, I plan to share that here too.

As for pages on my blog, I’ll be updating my about page since that hasn’t been done in quite a while. I’ll also be keeping my current song! page. I really do think that one is fun and lets me share what I’m currently listening to. I hope to keep it updated regularly.

I aim to post at least once a week. Of course, more than once a week would be lovely too. It all depends on time. With school and work and other things that I do, I end up being tired or just wanting to watch a show. I’m going to try to set aside time to do more constructive things, like this blog and art and taking walks. Because, you know, exercise.

And now, I’ll wrap this up. Overall, just getting this post up and published makes me really happy. Tonight I plan to get everything updated to how I see fit. This weekend, I also hope to get more things done with this. Like posting and stuff. All in all, there are a variety of things to come!

I’ll probably have another post up after I finish updating. I’ll be sharing a couple things with you. 😉

Have a nice evening,

Nicole

K-Pop in the Kitchen!

Okay, so yes, it has been FOREVER since I’ve last made a post…well, I’m back! I can’t promise I’ll post every day, but I will make sure to post at least once a week. I miss being able to write and share everything that I find fun and interesting. I also like being able to choose and show others what song is in my head. Trust me, my roommates will thank me for blogging again. I probably annoy them with continuously saying and showing what song I’m into.

Anyways, let’s get passed that little intro. As you can tell, this post has something to do with the kitchen. I think I’ve shared before about making sweet Korean pancakes (hotteok)? If not, then oopsies. Anyways, they’re really delicious and there’s no way anyone can dislike them. I say IMPOSSIBLE! So now I’m going to share this hotteok/hoddeok recipe that I found online somewhere. I’ve made hotteok going on ten times now, so I’ve figured out what works and what doesn’t work.

And now onto the recipe! Yay. Hold on tight because this is going to be a long one.

Ingredients (For Dough):

  • 1 Cup lukewarm water
  • 2 Tablespoons white sugar
  • 2 Teaspoons yeast
  • 1/2 Teaspoon salt
  • 2 Tablespoons vegetable oil
  • 2 Cups flour

Ingredients (For Filling):

  • 1 Cup brown sugar (I use light and not dark)
  • 2 1/2 Teaspoons cinnamon powder
  • Extra ingredients, such as chocolate chips or some type of nut.

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Step 1

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Put 1 Cup of lukewarm water into a medium or large mixing bowl

Step 2

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Add 2 TBS of white sugar, 2 ts of yeast, 1/2 ts of salt, and 1 TBS of vegetable oil. Stir well.

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Add 2 cups of flour and mix it.

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Cover it and let the dough rise at room temperature for 1 hour.

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It should double its size after an hour. Knead the dough to remove the gas bubbles.

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Let it rise for another 10-20 minutes.

 Step 7

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Mix 3/4 cup of brown sugar (light) and 2 ts of cinnamon powder for the filling. Get other ingredients ready (I used chocolate chips).

 Step 8

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Put flower down on counter (workspace). Knead the dough again and put it on the counter in a ball.

Step 9

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Keep splitting it in half until you have 16 equal balls of dough.

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Flatten each ball. Then put the brown sugar/cinnamon filling in the center with your extras. Seal it back into a ball.

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Put a fry pan on medium and add a layer of vegetable oil.

Step 12

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Place (4) balls in the pan and let it cook for about 30 seconds, or until the bottom is golden brown.

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Flip them over and flatten it into a wide circle.

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Let it cook for a minute or so, until the other side is golden brown.

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Flip it over one more time and cover, turning the heat to low.

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Cook it for another minute.

Finished!

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So…all of these pictures were taken by my roommate (who is a digital photography major). This had been done for a speech assignment, and now I’ve decided to share it with everyone! For the filling, I reaaaaaally like chocolate, and so that’s what I’ve chosen to put in them. Though on the website I got the original recipe from, they said that they add mozzarella cheese for the filling.

I also made these a couple of days ago (Saturday) when I went back home and visited my aunt, uncle, and cousins. While making these with my cousin, we were discussing what else could be put in the middle. She came up with a great idea. Putting fruit in it would be very yummy, and healthier. Then I was thinking, how about cream cheese with it? I think sometime I might experiment with that. I’d also like to see what anyone else comes up with. ^.^

Anyways, one long post later and now I have another post on my mind to write up and everything. Sooo, bye!
~Nicole

P.S.: I also suggest listening to K-Pop or whatever is stuck in your head while making these. Just be careful in the kitchen if you start dancing. No falling!

So uh, *awkward moment walking into a room*

Hi everyone! Um, I do realize it has been almost two months since I’ve posted here. I feel horribleeeeeee about it, really. But what can I say, college started getting the best of me. Now, I can say I just got to busy for getting on here to write and have fun. (YES, fun. This stuff is fun.) But I know that isn’t the whole truth. I really didn’t realize it until a couple days ago that I was slipping back into depression. Ugh, it makes me feel horrible that I didn’t even notice. I started eating more again and not really wanting to be social or anything. I mean, I was fine in my apartment with my roommates and everything. I was still a silly, loud person, but there were a lot of times of me zoning out or not smiling or anything-and I smile A TON. I think this mainly started because I was soooo stressed out the last couple months. First, I started getting behind in my classes last quarter. This was partly my own fault (I got lazy) and then I also was sick and missed a week of class. Then, I’ve been stressing over money issues. I needed a job ASAP. But now, there’s new classes (fourth week of the quarter at the moment, and I CANNOT STAND my history class). And I also have training for a job this Friday! There’s also a possibility of me having a second part-time job at my school.

Now that I’m not stressing as much and trying to be more logical about everything I’m doing, I’ve decided to get back to what I love. This blog is one of them. Another is learning. Now, I know I’m in college but aside from the horrid history class, I really only have hands on art classes (even if the one is with computers), so it doesn’t feel much like learning. What I do enjoy learning is language. I know this because I took three years of Spanish in high school. So, the day before yesterday I picked up the Korean Language for a Good Job book that I won from Two Chois. I was really enjoying it even though I made myself start over. I have decided that I want to try to go over some Korean every day. An exception for yesterday because I had a headache and my aunt came over-headache because I waited to eat my first meal at 3pm…stupid, I know. I’ve also downloaded a Korean/English keyboard on my phone to help, as well as adding a Korean keyboard to my laptop. I just need some of those little sticker things to put on my Keyboard so I know where each letter is without looking at the picture I saved to my desktop.

Unfortunately, today is my long day of class, but I decided to at least get this post saying what all has happened up to help my mood. The history class is today. I like history, but this is a four hour lecture hall class where the teacher talks about the same things over and over and over. Not to mention she shows us like four powerpoint presentations and two movies each class. I think if you cans how us that much then it doesn’t need to be that long of a class because it’s the same thing over and over and it gets boring and gives me a headache. It also doesn’t help that she only gives us one 15 minute break. And it’s from six to ten in the evening…after my Image Manipulation class…so I hardly have time to eat anything.

Blah. I’m done complaining. I’m happppppy again, and so relieved and I don’t even know how to explain. but I plan on giving the blog a face-lift. I think you’ll be surprised as to what I have planned. Also, of course, I’ll be getting back to talking about and reviewing K-Pop, since that’s what I like to do.

Though it’s most likely a lot of this won’t be happening until tomorrow since I have stuff to do before class and I don’t get home until after 10 pm. And of course I like to eat dinner then. It just depends on how exhausted I am.

So, bye for now!

Nicole

Friday…which should be renamed.

Yes, it’s been quite awhile since I’ve been on to post. I had decided it was best to focus on school and doing well in class (which I have been, I have all A’s at the moment). But now that week 5 of the quarter is now over, I’ve decided to try getting online more and go back to posting frequently because I’ve missed it. I’ve missed having something that’s fun to look forward to.

So, I started this blog post on August 10th, and I’m just now finishing it on the 27th. I guess it’s better than not finishing it at all. I’ve had a lot to do. I’ve decided to not get rid of that first paragraph up there. I mean, what would be the point? You might as well be able to see what all I wrote….except for the sentence that I started and never finished. That was erased. I still don’t know my classes for next quarter and I’ve been procrastinating horribly. My grades are still doing good. One has dropped a bit, but it’s still good. I need to start projects when I get them and not the day or couple days before they’re due.

I really am still interested in this blog, but stuff happens, I suppose. But, I’ll be moving forward and try to find topics that I want to talk about. I like talking, even if it is just typing right now. I don’t really have enough confidence to try vlogging, though I like watching other vlogs. They can be quite interesting and everything.

Tonight (even though it’s going on 2 AM) I’ve been listening/watching Andie from Overworld (a Swedish band). He’s right when he says he can talk. The current one is this one. He doesn’t talk too much nonsense or anything and it’s like a conversation. I recommend any of them, really.

And now onto K-pop, I suppose. I mean, I do blog about it a lot (obviously, it is what started my goals in life that is related to South Korea). I quite like Teen Top’s comeback. Rocking is really catchy and the dancing is a lot different and interesting from their previous stuff. And I’m still going to be a big fan of them. Fighting! And so, Rocking is definitely going to be the new current song. Totally the end of the post now. I’ll update soon, promise.